worst possible mood right now, but who am I supposed to call? Who am I supposed to talk to?

I shouldnt give a shit what you think...but I do. I need to go all day tomorrow without seeing you, I need to go tomorrow without texting you. I dont know what you are to me. I can do this, I am strong.

I feel like I cheated my mother out of senior pictures, and prom and walking at graduation. Im sorry that I didnt let you have the experience of senior year for me. I am so sorry.

I feel really alone, even though Ive been surrounded with people for 3 days. you drop me off after 12 and I see you before 11, thats not much time for me but it feels like forever.

watching you through chemo is the worst feeling in the world.

Im done talking. I only seem to dig myself in to holes. I speak out of anger, jealousy and fear and I destroy peoples trust. Im done doing my version of helping. Im stopping, and letting everyone finally be happy again.

does anyone read this anymore? if I posted my deepest darkest secrets...would it matter? i am falling for you.