Shannon Weller.

You are my best friend. I love you more than words can explain and its your 18th birthday today! its all about you and nobody else, I hope today is good to you! cause you deserve it. Dont let anyone ever make you feel less than the incredible person you are. I love you alot...and think you deserve the world. you are beautiful!

I know you will not read this. You tell me not to text you EVER but you dont fucking respond to my calls. I feel like your not speaking clearly, I know not to text you but I think a part of you wants me to never talk to you again. if so I wish you would just tell me. that would be alot better than this shit your putting me through,

1. I wish I could help you.
2. I wish I could make you see how blessed you are.
3. I wish I could make you feel less lonley.
4. I wish I could provide you somewhere to live.
5. I wish I could drive to you for once.
6. I wish that you saw me for who I really was and not who I have pretended to be.
7. I wish you would come to my birthday, its 18. a big one to do without you.
8. I wish you would text me first.
9. I wish you would meet the girl you deserve.
10. I wish you would treat me like a friend.
11. I wish you would just see that I want to be with you.
12. I wish you would treat me like you did before the fight.
13. I wish we were actually going to be okay for real.
14. I wish you would treat yourself with more respect.
15. I wish you were honest with me.
16. I wish I didnt ever say that to you.

i cant stop crying, and my anxiety will be my death.

I justt neeed to point out the fact that I am really blessed by my best friend, she is the greatest and we are so much alike as we figured that out last night.

i really miss you.

im sorry for all the lies I have fed you all over the years, I admitt today that I have a problem. but all I do know anymore is that I dont want to let the past determine the future. I dont want to lose any of you, because I am willing to do anything to regain that trust, regardless of how long it takes. I know you deserve more from me, so I am going to give it you.

the only thing that seems to cure my feeling of being alone is the fact that I get to buy important people in my life wonderful christmas presents!

http://www.urbanoutfitters.com/urban/catalog/productdetail.jsp?itemdescription=true&itemCount=60&startValue=1&selectedProductColor=&sortby=&id=17721101&parentid=SALE_W_ACC&sortProperties=+subCategoryPosition

this purse is my newest obsession!

im so close to giving up on you, I have never felt this way about a person. Im so sorry for even thinking about it.

thank you, and im sorry for the past blogs.